Motivation

I recently learned about a condition called C-PTSD. I feel like my learning about this was a clear divide. Me before I knew there was a thing called complex post traumatic stress disorder and me afterward.

Not everyone will take this in, I completely understand. I have been living in a community that probably doesn’t suffer from this at all. Since I do and it’s clear that I have for as long as I can remember, it makes it interesting and raises questions. Do I try to explain or do I just move forward incorporating this new understanding for myself?

I decided to find an online community who may also benefit from knowing about this. With this side note: as I have always known that there was something different about me, I was constantly trying to remedy what I felt was ‘wrong’. This lead to a whole lot of compassion, understanding and self soothing tactics which I think might be helpful to others.

I have researched and tried so many different philosophies to try to ‘fix’ myself, it could be considered embarrassing. Little did I know I was becoming pretty skilled at regulating my brain and body during tough moments.

Where I used to think that I lacked motivation and follow through, I now see that I actually had both. Not in the ways that I had hoped, not so obvious to anyone, but so much so that I can say I’m good at something I didn’t know was even a thing. Self regulation. It IS a thing and ptsd or not, everyone can find some peace when they learn to do it.

I’m going to highlight different ways to calm our nervous systems. If it sounds crazy, well, maybe it is. Here’s hoping it will be amusing and helpful and enough so that anything crazy will be overlooked.