I can easily get caught in a loop of dysregulation and forget to check in with myself to see what I need to regulate. Its common for me to forget that I have choices when things go awry. Another thing I sometimes forget, is that nothing outwardly needs to happen for me to regain regulation. Yesterday it was one simple action that set me back toward feeling okay. From there, I was able to get all the way back.
Before I took that one little step, I was a bit discouraged and things started feeling hopeless and a little scary. As I reflect on the way it all fell back together, I realize that it can be the tinyest micro action that can make bigger choices available.
I’m going to try to remember this.
Today is a full day of way too much yoga. I’m still getting the hang of ‘Blanket Yoga’ so I didnt want to miss that. There are two teachers I haven’t met, with class descriptions that sound interesting. One bbbbb at five pm and six thirty. These are times that span my dinner hour, so I ordinarily wouldn’t attend, but since I’m still exploring on my two week trial, I feel it is benificial to check out the whole schedule of classes. It’s also helping me get a feel for this particular studio’s vibe.
Yoga has a big range of possibilities. I intend to stay open to everything new. In order to keep showing up with my best beginners mind, and be the person that no one knows over and over again, I will need to take measures to get and stay regulated. Being the only one who doesn’t know what’s going on, reminds me of being a new kid in school. I did not enjoy being the new kid.
I enjoy being the old kid. The one who’s done it all a million times and feels completely confident. Ask me anything. I’ll happily help out.
Today it’s my turn to know nothing, to be corrected, to get it wrong, to keep getting it wrong. I intend to stay open minded, while taking the best care of me, so I can keep showing up, knowing a little more, still getting it wrong and still smiling.
Peace Kit 