Not sure

What’s the opposite of being in control? Hint:it’s not being out of control.

Sometimes it’s a quiet acceptance. A surrender to the universe. A simple acceptance of uncertainty.

There is a significant amount of uncertainty in anyone’s life. Habit and routine might balance out what can not be planned, but some days or times feel particularly rudderless.

We did have a pre-emptive knowing that things would change. I guess we need a few days to reel. Did the weather know? Why is it suddenly 29 degrees? Do I really have to scrape my windshield? Wasn’t I just walking on the beach? How can I be spending today in CCU after the few days of issues that led us there. They have given us enough information so that we kind of know what to expect for at least part of this day…

It’s relative though. We left feeling pretty confident of the status quo the first night, Only to have everything change drastically. My mind should not try to predict. With so many variables there are just too many possibilities for what today might hold.

I don’t know what to focus on. It’s too cold to work on the computer in my attic space . It’s too cold to work outside. Yoga is off the table for now. Oh my. Hard to know how to bouy myself. I guess a freezing walk? Ugh.

At the very least, I know enough to take care of myself. Even if I feel it’s a bit of an imposition and I’ve not yet decided what exactly to do. I have one hour before visiting hours…