Trying to defend or explain

What could you do less of?

Last night I somehow got myself involved in a conversation about intuition with a handful of intuitive people. One woman was a Native American Shaman. At one point she turned to me and said that I didn’t have to explain myself out of fear that I might not be accepted. She said no one was going to understand anyway. It was information worth pondering. How often do I think someone needs a back story to get me or understand my motivation.

It’s true. I can’t really explain very well anyway, nice to be told not to bother. It’s funny how I’m still on the vein of caring what others think. Another good reminder to live and let live. It’s just that I hate to exasperate anyone, and I do get comments!

This is what I am going to commit to do less of. Giving any commentary on my choices and decisions, my progress, my books, my art. All the pactical minded family members left wondering and worrying, who I’m not really helping with my defenses anyway, are just going to have to talk among themselves.

I will hopefully find this liberating eventually, even if I can’t at the moment figure out how I will deflect, but just imagine, me going forward, as if I had a decent salaried job doing something anyone can understand.

I love this challenge. When I go off to work, yes it’s work even if it’s fulfilling and enjoyable, I will be as justified and legitimate as my son the coding engineer, who also enjoys his job too much and finds it quite fulfilling. Some creative pursuits take years to become lucrative. it’s part of the territory. I often wish I had completely different abilities, but I don’t. This is what I’m doing. Speculation is welcome but will be addressed much less!