My path?

Today at yoga, Megan our instructor, told us about the goddess Lakshmi who is the goddess of possibility and fortune. Apparently she is for not only for material riches, but spiritual riches as well. She rides on a white owl and sprinkles out flower petal like blessings as she flies over head. I picture something like that golden buzzer moment on America’s Got Talent. Why have I never heard this story before? We did a whole yoga practice dedicated to Lakshmi, complete with owl poses and letting go of resistance poses and even surrendering to our own path poses. I love this idea. I love a good metaphor. I always love a story with a point.

Megan closed the class with the suggestion to allow ourselves to let go of all resistance, to open up to all possibilities and to surrender to our path. The last part stuck with me. I have been in this free fall for a little while now. I am learning every day how to surrender. It occurred to me that what I’m surrendering to is actually just my own path.

That seemed a little funny. I am living so entirely on everyone else’s agenda these days. Im not suggesting I didnt agree. I did sign up for all of it, but it has felt like someone else’s life. So not mine.

Is the joke on me that this IS my life. This is what I’m doing. This. All of it. Right now I’m writing children’s books in New England while supporting my husband as he helps out aging parents with a barage of age related medical issues. That, my friends, is my path.

I’m going to open my hands and let go. Let the possibilities rain down on me. Stop resisting what is. Have at it Lakshmi, I’m ready!

It’s interesting that the energy changed again. Things started falling into place in many surprisingly good ways. (before and after yoga). Life can be so unpredictable. I guess why NOT surrender? It’s not like I have much control anyway. This is it. This is my path. Twist, turns and all the craziness. Fun and adventure factored in.

I have to think surrendering has a little bit of embracing in it. Maybe that’s my own swing. If lm going to surrender, I’m going to find ways to like it. I am absolutely going to make the very best of this stretch of the road, because, well, apparently it is MY path.