People places and things

What relationships have a positive impact on you?

I have relationships with different people, places and things. Ideally I like to spend as much of my time with positive people doing positive things in uplifting places. This is easier some days than others, but generally I do my best to gravitate towards positivity, and flee when things get too negative.

Yoga, easy upbeat conversation, comfortable friendships, music, books and outings that inspire me are some things I like to be impacted by. There are many different kinds of positive activities for me to spend my time doing and positive people to do them with.

It’s interesting that despite my best efforts, I will still bump up against some big challenging moments. I just had a weirdly bad travel day. It was long and extremely uncomfortable. I’ll leave out the details because, we’ve all had at least one and know how they go. So much happening and not happening, and so many details. Then, there was some family drama I didn’t know about, but was suddenly getting snippets of, and felt. Finally, a big feeling of negativity crashed into my personal space when two women fanned the flames of a disagreement and some retaliation by one of them. They went on and on, rehashing details no one wanted to hear about. It was hard to stand clear. You could see and hear and feel it escalate. Even the kids were affected. Most of us were bystanders, it wasn’t a small group, I’m surprised how all encompassing the energy became.

Talk about wanting to flee, and not being able to. It was a little like being stuck on the airplane only instead of tired disgruntled strangers, we were an intimate group. Still the negativity crackled around us, me, and I am left wondering about trouble shooting because it’s pretty clear, I have not recovered.

How can I encourage a few of my positive relationships to crowd out and replace the residue of these encounters? I want to have a good day! I want lightness to replace heaviness. I’ve seen energy shift in a moment, I know it’s possible!

At the end of it all, I know that I am responsible for my own energy. Oh, I would like to blame these happenings for pushing me out of regulation, but I know so well, it’s not the happening as much as my reaction to what happened. It’s me not taking charge of my own thoughts and opinions. I know positive impact when I feel it, I know how to turn my attention in it’s direction even. I know I have to let the past be and look in the direction that I want to go.

I know these things, I’ve practiced these things. I guess I’m grateful for some more practice. This has been the beginning.

We played monopoly with the kids. They don’t remember playing when they were younger, so I found myself telling them that there are stages of this game. In the beginning you buy anything, you don’t try to save. In the middle you buy houses. Anything can happen and it did. They all ended up in jail trying to roll doubles. They all got discouraged and wanted to quit. There was a point where things shifted and houses started being able to be bought. I think monopoly might be more like life than I thought. Not in the money part as much in the momentum. Maybe trips too…