We are in California. It’s winter here and it’s winter in CT, but wow, cold is relative. Rain? Also relative. We have seen record rain in both places. We aren’t phased. Nothing can dampened our spirits, we are home. I love this chance to be visiting right now. Life has brought me a whole unexpected experience and it has been lovely.
With things settled down medically back east, we took the chance for a little much needed break which has turned into something wonderful. One week has become a month, which may become two.
The unpredictability of right now is bizzare. I wake up thinking I’ll be doing some things only to have a day filled with nothing even close. Nothing has gone according to plan and I truly am trying to plan. Days have been flying by, time has never moved this fast. I must be having fun!
I AM having fun. In fact I’m having a whole different relationship with fun. This is an adventure. A winding unpredictable adventure that feels a little like sliding down a twisting water slide.
What I’m intrigued with is the power of intent. At a time when I have very little physical control over anything. I don’t have a car most of the time. I haven’t had work in months. The usual things that help make us feel a little powerful as humans in the world, I am temporarily without. Still, I am directing, in fact the only way any direction is given or taken has been in my mind. I’ll think of a few basic things I’d like to see or do and for whatever reason, they happen. Usually in some completely unexpected way.
Could it be that this is what I’m a student of right now? I have had things fall away. I have learned to let go. I understand impermanence a little, but this intentioning concept has remained mysterious. It’s interesting that in this odd state of free fall, I’m having many tries and even more reminders to try out setting small silent intentions and then seeing them show up. Yes the day may go awry, the events of the day might not be the ones I expect, but the general upbeat, loving interactions that I care most about, have presented themselves in sweet surprising ways. I couldn’t plan any of it better than it has organically happened.
There is an intelligence of the cosmos out there that I have no choice but to yield to. This is good! Didn’t Victor Frankle say something about the one thing no one can take is your mind. Everything outside can be what it is, but our minds belong to us. I know that I don’t know the full perspective or possibile potential. I understand being open to things I haven’t considered, but how cool to hope for a certain thing and see it come up while simultaneously seeing things not.
My mind belongs to me and I get to do with it what I want. I can let others influence it, but I don’t have to. I can let things get to me and sometimes they do, but I can change my mind and what I think about any time. That is my true power. Taking a moment to ask myself what I want most, how I’d like for things to go, has been so interesting. I guess I don’t care about weather, as much as I care about joy, love and fun. I really never know if so called ‘bad’ weather can lead to one of these things. Wouldn’t you know that it has!?
Peace Kit 