Waaaaa

Why am I letting this get to me? How can I shake it off? I think what I have here today is a perfect opportunity to practice using my own tools.

What will make me feel just a tiny bit better? Have I meditated? Am I breathing consciously? Maybe I’m hungry…

Hmmm

I walked away and I fixed myself an egg on buttered toast and a cup of tea. Everyone has their comfort foods. This is a bit more than comfort for me, I used to make for my kids. Maybe you’ve seen it with the hole in the bread, they always loved the little toasted cutout piece. When I was a kid it was more no nonsence. Regular buttered toast with a poached or coddled egg. You actually eat it cut up as if you are still a toddler, too young to cut your own food. I’m acting like a baby (waaaa why do people keep unfollowing me…) I might as well eat like one.

After a fun trip to find something called ‘Guanciale’ and stopping at a new ice cream place. I’m enjoying another cup of tea and some painting time.

I’m already feeling better. I’m not sure why this one thing is so discouraging for me. I’m not sure about any of it right now, but it’s okay. I’ll take a little step back and do some things that are more fun and helpful, because regulation is important, and man, was I dysregulated!