My take

Time to attach my phone to the tripod and work on some illustrations.

I have a little window of time. A space. Some art supplies. A tripod.

It’s a new day.

Time to give it another go.

Some days this feels like I’m not moving forward

The mock up has taken weeks and still isn’t printed. Another Friday with another reason why it’s not. The last email from them was confusing until I realized they didn’t read the instructions I sent off weeks ago. They are closed on the weekend.

Social media has me wondering. After several ‘Learn more’ clicks, I’m convinced that everyone just wants my email address and to sell me something that promises things it can’t possibly deliver. Want to lose weight? I need to eat more food?! For only $37 or $97 or $199 I can learn how to grow my business, write a blog, publish a book, sell my art, tone my muscles, become an affiliate marketer. It’s easy! So easy that I’m stupid not to be doing it. Only a few cicks and I can make thousands while I sleep, lose weight and tone up with a 12 minute workout once a week. One woman just said Im not eating enough carbs, vegetables don’t count, what I need is to eat bagels or muffins along with more fat in order to gain muscle. Another said if I’m craving sugar, it’s because I need to eat more sugar. Uh. My deep dive into trying to learn about this, is leaving me conflicted. And confused. And distracted. Does anyone wonder if any of this is factual? I guess no one cares about that.

What do they care about? I can’t tell. I don’t even know what I don’t know. My BS meter is getting a work out anyway.

I wrote Beatrix Betterfly after hearing about teens and preteens getting caught up in the filtered frenzy of trying to measure themselves against people they saw online. Many were discovering the magic of looking better than real and everyone else was buying it. This got worse during Covid because actual interactions were few and far between. How can anyone compare to a filtered well lit, carefully posed version of someone they see for five seconds online? Lots of kids were comparing their real faces with perfected almost cartoon versions of online faces. Eyelashes alone were out of control.

I wonder if anything on the internet is what it appears to be. There must be a few things. I need to sidestep this whole subject because I’m losing time worrying, when what I ought to be doing is brainstorming a new way, a new approach. Im not the first person to be deterred by the internet. Do I want to let it make me quit?

No I do not.