Growth

What experiences in life helped you grow the most?

Sometimes I need to hear something a million different times and in a million different ways to finally HEAR it.

I probably need to see and experience things a million different times to change my perception.

So I guess maybe it’s just that one more time that makes me go OOOHhh!

So I was painting a closet this morning and I heard it. Often when I hear something, I can’t unhear it and this time, I really hope I don’t forget it.

It’s funny how whatever experience I’m in, it’s always, in a separate seemingly unrelated way, teaching me something about myself. It’s never about becoming something else as much as it is about healing and letting go of some part of my own self that isn’t serving me. Is it true that a door has to close before another one opens?

The issue is never the problem, it’s a symptom of something bigger. In other words if I want to become better at something, I have to let go of what makes me struggle with it. If for example I wanted to be a better batter, I would have to first stop batting like I have been. Maybe I would have to hold the bat differently or take a different stance. Maybe I would have to change what I thought about as I swung. But maybe it’s not all about batting at all. Maybe I have some deep beliefs about playing ball or being a player or who knows. Maybe I have bigger concerns to let go of. Maybe hitting is a metaphor. (Or struggling on social media)

I guess what I heard was to step back and pay attention to the broader picture. In order for me get out of my own way, I need to consider more than just the symptoms of what I think is the problem. I want to be a whole and healthy person rather than simply a success. I might need to consider something deeper than my Instagram skill set.