Ready or Not

Is it really ready? I’ll find out in an hour or so.

We used to say this when we played hide and seek or kick the can. If you’re “it” you count and then shout “Ready or not, here I come”. No one gave two seconds of thought to this. We just said it and began. It was a signal, like “Game on!’ If you’ve ever played this game, you know it all starts long before that moment, with the counting and the running and the hiding, which was actually the fun part. Waiting to be discovered could get a little boring sometimes.

I want very much to get to the fun part of what I’m doing now. I may have thought that seeing my mock up might be fun. Or sharing it, but instead I’ve been given this interesting pause, which has correlated with my trying to make and post reels on Instagram. Neither thing has gone smoothly.

Does it matter?

No, guess not. I really need to put this into some perspective. Does any of this matter? (takes a big gulp of coffee) uh… probably not. All the little hiccups and setbacks are part of what makes a project a project. What is getting me so caught up in the not so joyous details, I wonder?

A better question might be how can I make any of this more fun? How can I make this about what it’s really about? Its never going to be fun or real to me if all Im worried about are numbers and ‘likes’ and failed attempts at uploading reels. Or printing delays.

I’m quite ready to find a different vibe to create in. Where did the love go? Where is the joy? Oh, right, it’s hiding (probably in plain sight). I guess I sort of forgot whose job it is to look for it.

Me. I’m ‘it’! Ready or not…