Value

What is the last thing you learned?

I lost my cup, a favorite article of clothing and gained a clear insight.

I also became dysregulated and depleted and am still. A small price to pay really since I’ve finally learned to value myself in the process. My time and contribution are important, I will remember to hang out with people who also value these things about me and treat me respectfully. I’ve paid for this lesson, and I can’t even be sure I’ll remember next time. I hope I WILL remember how terrible it feels to be treated without respect or witness others disrespected, whether intentional or not, the feeling is unmistakable.

If I find myself overextended and under appreciated perhaps I’ll stop and set some boundaries, because as I’ve learned a time or two, before, it’s not at all fun to feel diminished.

It has to be up to me to say no. It has to be up to me to ask for what I need. It has to be me to pull in and take cate of myself. Most importantly, it’s up to me to say that I’m not available if I don’t want to be or it’s too much.