Just Another Thursday

I wonder if my momentum is waning

Maybe Im just tired. Probably nothing a good night sleep can’t solve.

I’ve been doing my best to stay upbeat. Working at different things. Painting and posting on instagram every day. Looking for what will feel joyful, positive, peaceful. I have watched over my energy and regulated as carefully as I can. Yoga has been working muscles I haven’t used in a while. Yard work too. All of these things have left me tired. There have been a few complicated matters…

I am the perfect before story. This moment. Earlier today I was so tired and sore I couldn’t get myself out of bed. I’m usually an early morning person, (which I easily forget on days like today). Ever have things start out like this?

Struggle. Ugh.

A Third day of rain is contributing to me feeling tired and more discouraged. I’m not thrilled with my painting, (that happens), I can’t log into my canva account, (also happens), my video effort didn’t capture what I was hoping it would. Its raining sideways and it’s cold. Our one plan to go to this outdoor antique fair is off the table due to weather. Oh man.

I have yoga thank goodness. I want the opposite of a fair weather friend. Maybe I need a rainy day crowd to hang out with in coffeeshops or somewhere cozy. Or something. What do people do when it rains without stopping for days? I wonder how I’ll shift my energy because I will at some point. I always do.

Somehow, I’m going to have to be my own sunshine today.

G was going all New England-y there for a moment not wanting to go to the fair in the rain, but he changed his mind. He told me I won’t like it. It will be miserable and muddy. (So still a bit of pessimistm) I guess I’ve been warned.

I am dressed, appropriately, (I hope). They warned me at yoga that everything will be over priced. (Yoga did include a lot of sun salutations anyway). I don’t mind. I’m not going to buy, I’m going to look and get out. I like following a bit of curiosity, even in the rain.

Let’s see if it’s terrible or not.