Luck or

The theme for the March art walk in LaJolla is luck.

Luck because it’s St Patrick’s Day month.

Hmmm luck…

I’m feeling pretty lucky that I’ll have another chance to be part of things there. Lucky to be enjoying early Spring in San Diego. Lucky to be sitting here thinking about printing the names and sizes of my paintings and figuring out prices, typing away while gazing out through Palm trees at the ocean.

I actually used to feel kinda guilty for being lucky. I often would think of my luckiness, (happily), then talk to someone having a less lucky time, and feel bad. In fact, I stopped thinking of myself as lucky and just tried to be grateful, which is maybe the more mature thing to be.

This is a little funny to me because really, it was just the way I spun my own story. Some people tell a sad tale, (I could do that too) but why?

I learned somewhere along the way that casting myself in the victim role, didn’t really make me feel good, but the happy-go-lucky role could be a little fun. At least until I felt the angst of someone else. I didn’t do Facebook for years because I didn’t want anyone to feel jealous (of me). As if I had the power to make someone feel a certain way. Hand slap to my forehead. Oh right…

I would sometimes be the lucky underdog. People usually like an underdog, but again, why? Why spend any more time trying to buffer everyone’s feelings? It doesn’t work. Did I think I could be more likable if I did? That’s crazy. I might finally get that I have no control over how others feel.

I think, starting right now, I’m going to go back to calling myself lucky. Only minus the guilt. I’m going to trade out fortunate for feeling lucky. Why not? I’ll still be super appreciative and grateful for my luckiness. How could I not be?

Being lucky is fun. It’s fun for me and it’s fun for anyone caught up in it with me. Let’s be lucky together.

The art walk is coming up, luckily. And luckily I have plenty of time to get some things ready for it. I’ll be using my blog and my website to print out and copy from. Just a little heads up that you might be along, luckily, for a preview of the upcoming show themed around luck.