Okay, maybe not ‘never’, but rarely.
Some days, I may have wished for a little boredom, in hindsight, I’m glad for all the twists and turns.
I’m a little surprised that I’m still here on planet earth. I have no plan, no mission, no big needs. I used to. But it didn’t go at all like I thought I wanted it to.
In my young mind, I wanted a home that I stayed in forever. Yep, that was me, searching wanting, hoping for a forever home. I bought a couple and loved them, until a twist or a turn came along.
As a grown up kid who moved a lot, I wanted my kids to go to the same schools with the same friends all the way through. I did achieve that, but by the skin of my teeth. Then I learned that kids change, so their friends change even if they are surrounded by the same kids. Also I learned, within that model a million things can happen. I thought I was clear in my desire to lead a regular life, but apparently there was a different plan in place.
Which I don’t regret now. I followed the bread crumbs. I showed up, I worked, I made impossible things happen.
I’m still far from a regular life, only now, I secretly like it. I think I do anyway. I feel lucky every day.
My values continue to change and shift which I’m glad for. I can’t imagine still using a casserole dish I got for my wedding, or living with decor I chose in the 80s, or believing everything I did or doing the same things I did when I was 20 or 30. (or some slightly modified versions because I got to stay put) I’m completely thankful for all the choices I’ve had to make over the years. The crazy plot shifting changes have made all the difference.
Another good starting line might be: “No one has ever suggested that I was an old soul.” I like this one better, if God forbid, I write an autobiography…
Peace Kit 