Extended

I think I’m tired. Maybe not physically, in fact physically I should be rested. I’ve been sleeping well, doing a lot of gentle yoga and meditating. Beach walks, catching up with friends etc.

It’s my mind that is all over the place. With so much happening at once, I have a LOT to think about. Places to be, people to contact, tasks to complete. All without much of an idea of how long I’ll be here in California. This might be the strangest leg of the journey that is my life, yet.

Back East, winter storms are raging. Our dock was wiped out. Our patient has taken a good turn and is home after months in hospitals following his unexpected surgery, among other things. All seems well with him, so we are extending our stay and adjusting our plans with each glowing report.

Maybe it’s because my mind seems to be in over drive lately that I am enjoying and keep looking forward to the twenty minute white noise meditation that my friend has included me in every morning . It’s a great challenge to quiet and settle my thoughts. It is worth every minute of effort, for the little spans of stillness I am able to achieve.

As an added bonus, my thoughts are slowly, gradually changing into helpful, inspiring ideas during that twenty minute period. I feel my worry thoughts dropping off a little which should be impossible. I would have expected the opposite.

You hear how important and good meditation can be. I have tried countless different sorts over the years with varying results. I wonder. Is my mind suddenly more hungry for peace? Is white noise my personal ticket? I really couldn’t tell you why I’m so taken with my friends version of meditating. I need to continue this on my own somehow.