Peace Kit

Do you have any collections?

I don’t think so

What is the legacy you want to leave behind?

I guess my kids? I’m not very legacy minded.

Loss and Distruction

This happened. My cup! It met its demise. I’m honestly really sad.

Sometimes it feels like the universe is conspiring to teach me something.

Lately, the lesson is this:

Don’t get attached, things are just things. Things are always changing. Life is in constant flux. I can be okay without. That gripping thing they mention in yoga, don’t do it. The little monkey who won’t let go, but can’t pull his hand from the hole unless he does.

I’m figuring out new ways to do many things. My mind is busy. There is something fun about navigating new things. Some brain experts suggest that doing every day things like brushing our teeth with the opposite hand is good for our brain. I imagine this is a little like that.

But my cup!!!!! I miss it already, it’s only been a few hours since this happened. I loved my giant cup, I haven’t been dehydrated since it came to me as a good bye gift from my good friend. It wasn’t just a cup, it gave me a sence of security. These days I never know where I’ll be going next or for how long. Unpredictability is probably good for my brain too, but now I need a new cup.

PS (the next day)

So today guess what arrived in the mail? I left a cup just like my pink one, (only lavender), at a friends house in CA. I thought it was lost forever, but she found it and sent it. Not even twenty four hours after losing my pink one, it landed back in my life. Timing is so interesting. We also found a missing car key fob that we all spent days searching for. I kept thinking it wasn’t really lost. It was just hiding and would eventually fall out, which is practically what happened. It was in G’s moms purse all along.

Beautiful Day

What a beautiful day!

It’s going to be lovely today. I know it. Rain is in the forecast and I am trying to practice not caring. Summer is around the corner I am all set to experience and enjoy a full New England summer. I think I’ll start today.

How do you feel about cold weather?

I would like to say it’s just weather and if I’m dressed appropriately it doesn’t bother me. This is partly true, but I’ve lived in variety of places from Canada cold where the radio warns of skin freezing wind chill to Hawaii where you are perpetually damp in the hot humidity (plus no one owns a dryer because they are too costly to run!). I’m a Goldilocks when it comes to weather, I think. So Cal has spoiled me.

Sun, sand and good vibes

I’m not in California. Yet I’ve been having some lovely beach days. It turns out, the north east has some powerful rays too. We are on an inlet of the ocean so the sun sets over the water. In others words, our beach faces west so we can still enjoy a sunset on the sand,

Our new little retaining wall is doing its job. High tide comes up to it but doesn’t flow over, so we stay dry as the evening goes on and the tide slaps higher and higher. It’s our own tiny patch of beach and we plan to make good use of it. There will be swimming and bonfires. I’ll likely drag some paint and canvas down here as well. Fishing, clamming, even crabbing has been mentioned. I have my boat to patch and restore, so baoting perhaps. G has ideas about a cook out…

In the meantime we are both a bit tired and sore from hauling rocks and sand, so tonight we are just enjoying the sound of mini waves, creaking docks and sea birds. The glittery evening light is reflecting aggressively off the water. Summer is here.

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Have you ever broken a bone?

Three.

My little finger got slammed in a car door when I was seven. It was winter in Canada and I was wearing a ski mitt. (Luckily). Still it was badly bent and swelled three times its usual size. Like a cartoon accident. It looked so bad I thought they were going to cut it off.

I got kicked by a horse, while riding another horse. It broke several bones in my foot. That hurt! It happened before school at riding club and no one believed me, including the teacher. I had to walk around all day and then take three buses home plus walk from the stop. It happened on the day of my first high school dance which I refused to miss. I remember the hospital taking forever. I kept asking everyone how much longer was going to take? The relief of getting my foot casted was huge! I remember everyone’s shocked faces when I arrived late, on crutches, to the dance. The teacher hurried to fill out an accident report.

I was cut off and tripped roller skating and broke my wrist. This happened only weeks after my leg cast came off. (I had a walking cast up to my knee for my foot break). That thing saw more weather! They still used plaster back then so I wrapped it in plastic not wanting to miss a football game or dance or whatever was going on. High school was a new kind of freedom which I was surely not missing out on.

I earned a reputation for being accident prone but didn’t care. I didn’t let broken bones get in the way of having fun. I was back rollerskating still wearing my cast almost the following week. I didn’t care what people were saying, I later heard lots of kids made fun of me . Oh well! I’m glad I was too busy to notice.

Better than expected

Today our yoga teacher explained a concept I’ve heard explained a number of times. I was having one of those mornings and hoped yoga would give me a little lift, which it did, and this one little thought has stayed with me.

We often think that opposites are two different things, They aren’t. They are two different ways to see the same thing. Further, to really know something like cold for example, you need to experience its opposite, but it’s really one thing.. The idea that we are all different expressions of the same source makes a little more sense when I think of it this way.

She gave the example that if we were a person who only liked sunny days then we would have a percentage of days we wouldn’t like, but if we think of one being the same but opposite expression of the same thing, knowing we get to decide how we react. Knowing we get to experience all kinds of days, might even help us feel appreciation more thoroughly. Just a little something for me to think about while the weather keeps predicting warm sunny days, but instead we’ve had rain, clouds and cold.

After yoga the sun came out. I spent the rest of my day outside in the garden and on the beach helping build a rock wall for a space next to where the dock will be rebuilt. I’m sunburned and exhausted. It’s a good feeling.

Balance? I might be Looking for Harmony Instead

How do you balance work and home life?

I don’t know. That’s my short answer. Life is odd at the moment. Will it balance out? Will I have anything to do with it? I don’t know that either.

Just doing my best to enjoy what’s enjoyable…

I like the concept of harmony better. I’ve never been able to balance life, usually for reasons I don’t have much I can do about. I see no sense in getting down about abstract concepts, what does balance even look like? Probably different for everyone.