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What public figure do you disagree with the most?

I disagree with the people who thought Van Gogh was a terrible artist and rejected his art while he was alive and painting. That wouldn’t be the definition of public figure, but the general public (I’m sure there were some public figures in there). Everyone in the art world was quite wrong. Well not everyone. He had a handful of supporters.

I don’t tend to look for how to disagree with people, public or otherwise. It’s never felt advantageous to me or peaceful to look for ways to disagree. Maybe when I was younger I did. Maybe I enjoyed the banter. Or feeling right. Or something.

Now a days, I try my best to understand. To find commonalities. or to acknowledge that everyone has differences of opinion, upbringing, cultural rules and norms, all of it. I can’t expect to truly understand or empathize most of the time, but I can step away and not throw my energy into disagreement.

Van Gogh is a great example of the future proving the masses wrong. You just never know

Or if you do, you might need a century or so to pass. In the meantime, I’ll likely keep my ignorance to myself. Sorry WP I’m not taking the bait..

Well

What is your career plan?

Today I put together a query letter, PDF, and links to send to a publisher. I guess my career plan is to keep going.

I’m proud of myself for getting it done. I’m grateful for my friend Anne who found a publisher that sounds like a good match and IS taking unsolicited query letters. Most agencies and especially publishers say right away that they don’t, so this one detail is huge.

Just Another Thursday

I wonder if my momentum is waning

Maybe Im just tired. Probably nothing a good night sleep can’t solve.

I’ve been doing my best to stay upbeat. Working at different things. Painting and posting on instagram every day. Looking for what will feel joyful, positive, peaceful. I have watched over my energy and regulated as carefully as I can. Yoga has been working muscles I haven’t used in a while. Yard work too. All of these things have left me tired. There have been a few complicated matters…

I am the perfect before story. This moment. Earlier today I was so tired and sore I couldn’t get myself out of bed. I’m usually an early morning person, (which I easily forget on days like today). Ever have things start out like this?

Struggle. Ugh.

A Third day of rain is contributing to me feeling tired and more discouraged. I’m not thrilled with my painting, (that happens), I can’t log into my canva account, (also happens), my video effort didn’t capture what I was hoping it would. Its raining sideways and it’s cold. Our one plan to go to this outdoor antique fair is off the table due to weather. Oh man.

I have yoga thank goodness. I want the opposite of a fair weather friend. Maybe I need a rainy day crowd to hang out with in coffeeshops or somewhere cozy. Or something. What do people do when it rains without stopping for days? I wonder how I’ll shift my energy because I will at some point. I always do.

Somehow, I’m going to have to be my own sunshine today.

G was going all New England-y there for a moment not wanting to go to the fair in the rain, but he changed his mind. He told me I won’t like it. It will be miserable and muddy. (So still a bit of pessimistm) I guess I’ve been warned.

Boots!

I am dressed, appropriately, (I hope). They warned me at yoga that everything will be over priced. (Yoga did include a lot of sun salutations anyway). I don’t mind. I’m not going to buy, I’m going to look and get out. I like following a bit of curiosity, even in the rain.

Let’s see if it’s terrible or not.

Which One?

What do you do to be involved in the community?

Which community is ‘the’ community I wonder. My east coast yoga community is one I’m happily involved in. How am I involved? Well

I go often. I appreciate all the different instructors and the different classes that they teach and tell them. (because I sincerely do). I try to get to know as many others in my classes, as I can, by being friendly, smiling and listening.Yoga attracts a colorful array of people and since I’ll never really understand it, I’m always curious about everyone else’s ideas and views.

My west coast yoga community became something like family. After Covid closed our studio doors we kept our little community going with online class, distance walks and upbeat chats. We celebrated birthdays and equinox es. This community is still very important to me.

We have a neighborhood community that we are mostly new to here. I think just slowing down to chat and being friendly is a good place to start. Keeping the lawn mowed and the edges trimmed has been helpful. A neighbor actually stopped to thank me.

Every community has different ways to be helpful and appreciative. Once I did a neighborhood mural where I met alll kinds of people I didn’t know were neighbors. Sometimes, just being outside doing something is all it takes to be involved.

Today, I spent a little while watching a new dock being put in. Different neighbors stopped to watch and ask questions. It reminded me of the show Mr. Rogers a little. Large telephone pole size posts had to be sunk several feet into the sand under the water. Everyone was a little captivated by the barge and machinery that drove the posts in. Mr Roger’s had a segment called Picture Picture in which he showed filmclips of something being made. For example, one time we watched crayons being made.

I think Mr Roger’s Neighborhood was well named. Mr Rogers was always interested in and friendly towards everyone. Because he was interested, we were to. Even the littlest of my kids would sit and nod when he talked to the camera. He modeled community involvement best. I didn’t ever think of that then, but he did.

Organics

What’s a job you would like to do for just one day?

For one day and one day only, I would like to work on an organic farm. I imagine it’s A LOT of hard physical work.

In the 80s before organic was a known thing I joined an organic co-op. Even the other co-op members hardly knew what it was about. I loved going out there with my kids, picking vegetables and ‘volunteering’ in the early summer evenings. They played Mozart to the flourishing plants, so we would be surrounded in green beautiful bliss. It was an experimental thing and the farmers were all very passionate about making it work. Which it seemed to, but no one else seemed to be too interested. We were always the only people besides the tired, dirt caked farmers we ever saw at the farm.

Soociety has come a long way. Farmers markets are busy places now, and organic produce is everywhere. I know I only have an small inking about how hard it is for these small farms to grow plants without chemicals, but I thoroughly appreciate them. Vegetables taste better, it all feels so much healthier for allof us. I know there are controversial aspects now that money and regulation are involved, but I still salute the efforts of passionate small farm farmers and feel grateful for their efforts.

Oh it’s raining

Thunder, lightning, the whole thing. There is nothing more New Englandy than a good rain.

My seeds are getting watered. Literally and figuratively. My friends told me to plant seeds on the day of the new moon. I had planted one day early so I planted a few more the next day.

I’m a little worried about how sporadic and crooked my carrot rows will be. I’ve never planted beets before. I see how metaphorical seed planting is. I’m excited to see what happens next, much less in the in long run, when there will be vegetables to eat. It seems pretty far fetched at this point, but in 56 days, things will be manifested. We can be confident of this because it’s been seen to have happened year after year.

This early in the gardening game I have a lot of waiting ahead of me. Probably some weeding as well. Life is like this.

I’m curious, but not about that…

I drank soda on special occasions as a kid. We called it pop. It was a fun part of the summer. I took the Pepsi challenge a few times. No loyalty either way.

What are your favorite brands and why?

I have a question. Why does it matter? I noticed that someone took the opportunity to plug a popular shoe brand over and over. And over. What clever tech trick someone at that company used is more of a curiosity for me than reading about soap or toothpaste.

I get that ‘branding’ is important. I hear this often. I think it’s the clever branders who are going from no followers to making six figures while they sleep. Meanwhile I can’t seem to figure out how to brand myself, or how to recognize myself as a brand. Am I one? I couldn’t tell you.

There are so many more interesting questions I’d love to hear the answers to about brands and branding. This question feels like market research. Coke or Pepsi? Some personal preferences don’t matter to me, should they?

Getting Advice

List the people you admire and look to for advice…

I like to get my creative advice from late artists. Not all of them are what one might call admirable in every part of life, but when I want to learn more about doing art I look no further than some of my favorites. I don’t ask with words because the advice I’m seeking is not worded. I’m looking to solve a puzzle about how to do something. I can’t often articulate my questions.. One time I was reading about dyslexia. The author who was dyslexic, explained that some people thought in pictures. Learning that not everyone thought in pictures, was a weird revelation for me. Afterwards I was obsessed and quizzed everyone I knew about how it was to think in words. I was a grownup with kids before I knew this.

I don’t know that I’ve ever been good at receiving advice. Rarely do I ask for it and I’ve never been a fan of it unsolicited. I like the brain process of reverse engineering. This has always been my best way to learn. I need to know the end product to stay focused. From letters of the alphabet to math facts, my need to understand why each step is important and where they lead has not always been helpful.

I just work with it though. Sure I was the last in my class to learn any of the building blocks of math or reading, but I got there. Now I read a lot. I don’t even think of my dyslexia as a problem so much as a different way to perceive

One time sceptical me went with my good friend to hear a guy named Michael Neil speak, I remember having low expectations, but then what he had to say got my attention. It had a strong element of simplicity and truth. Today I listened to him explain how thinking is a tool that our brains use. He told us he wasn’t going to tell us how to think, but instead point out that we use thinking in a variety of ways and that thinking is a gift.

Thinking is a tool gifted to us at birth. When used for the purpose it is intended,, we can create beautiful things. I like that. We all think differently. If our minds were a guitar or a paint brush, even if we were all musicians and artists, we would use these instruments differently. Used as intended art or music happens. Even a beginner will produce something art or music related. I don’t know. Something about that feels hopeful and good.

Sunshine

I came across quotes by Winnie the Pooh.

“It never hurts to keep looking for sunshine.”

Winnie the Pooh said a surprising amount of profound things

Sorry if I’m turning this into a bit of a book report lately. Every day I’ve been reading a little of ‘Untethered’ in the mornings and at night.

It feels like l’ve never read any of it before. I’ve actually had this thought: why have I never heard this?! It’s exactly the information that I’ve wondered about.

The whole energy issue has been a fascination of mine for years. Changing it, noticing it, being affected by it. What it even is, some people don’t agree that it exists at all. Watch it leave a body or a home, it’s definitely something. Chi. Life force. What is it that is animating these bodies of ours? What is the feeling in the room? What lingers when a body leaves? What is enthusiasm? Where does enthusiasm go when it gets replaced? Why do depressive feelings seem like exhaustion?

I am ever curious about what the book calls our ‘inner energy’. I like the idea that I have some influence over it.

Sitting on our beach on this warm sunny day. Creaking wood of the dock, gentle lapping of the waves on the sand. There is a little movement in the water. Its rhythmic and peaceful, one of the last beach days this year. Peace and sunshine are fleeting, always fluctuating. Always ebbing and flowing.

I once heard that opposites are really the same thing. Like two sides of a coin. Or with weather a sunny day or a stormy day, both are days. I hope to find as much pleasure as I feel in the sun today, in the rain on another day.

I hope to stay open and receptive to life as it unfolds in every way, regardless of how things are going.